Friday, June 27, 2008

MISSING YOU



MISSING YOU


Most of us feel / long for something that we do miss. I key down better and faster than I do pen. But when I did pen I used to write dairy every day and go through it in week end. When I am keying I couldn’t write anything as well no time to turn back to give some thoughts atleast. In life we all have an unspeakable secrets, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream, an unforgettable Love and un-get-at-able Chilhood. I do have all these. Though all the prior things are sensitive and differ person to person the later, comes prior in our life, "Childhood" remains almost same for most of the people. At last I have some time to key in the wistful thing I wish for though I won’t get it back "Childhood".

A small town filled with greeneries and ECO free air as our clean hearted neighbours. Those days of mine doesn’t differ much from my generation. Those who had a TV is big shots the one who is land lards. We had only two TV in my whole street. I could sign in anybody’s house in that street without giving any prior notice. Today even to goto my relation house I am supposed to inform them well in advance to keep their lips smiling.

Every one in that street knew me as it did other way around. Today I don’t know who the buddy is in my next flat as it does the other way around. We own the street we play on the road. No ground no cricket no video game nothing else. All are traditional games, of my town atleast. Kannaamoochi (Lost and found), “Thottu vilayaattu” (Being an engineer without even knowing the equivalent English word, name of this game; post me if you know) middle monkey, masa bandhu (Other name is 7 stone). We played hard and studied hardly. Those moments of sharing just a small chocolate with two or three persons tasted delicious and gave lot more happiness than all these buffets in rocking restaurants.

TV’s were our cheer girls on those days. It was virtue to us. It was complete hangout over week ends. I used to goto my landlord’s house to watch TV. One film per week, 30 min Oliyum Oliyum I didn’t even left Vayalum vaalvum. I love to listen to the DD ad. And sound in between ads. I loved TV like anything. Once we watched 3 colored rainbow that is been relayed more than an hour with out even knowing that is the screen that is been displayed when no proper signal is detected. Those days deploying the antenna in a house take status their status to the height more than that antenna. Cricket, watching it completely from first ball till the presentation without even understanding what the game is. I could buy a home theater which would break my neighbor's walls but do I get that happiness which I got it in a old model TV. TV remains same more over it got better and enriched. But I lost something which gave me happiness and making me to enjoy.

I could enjoy everything. Everything was fun on those days though I didn’t understand and because I didn’t understand. When I know and understand things now, watching Cricket gives me pressure when our team does in the game. Along with understanding and maturity I got all these unwanted Tension and long busy days. I want to grow yes I want to grow young. I love and wish to unlearn these all and get back my happiness and fun what I had. Miss you “Childhood”.

4 comments:

amudhan said...

Ooof... Shan... it was like reading a forward mail (some very rare forward mails, which will touch us)which will kindle the childhood of ours. Great writing Shan... I am still inside your blog... The only thing which disappoints me, if your frequency... write more... entertain us more...

And regarding the game name which you asked us to post... it is "oodi pudichi" :D... In engleepish I can say "Catch me if you can" (adhu kooda sondha arivu kidaiyaadhu... pada titilea suda vendi iruku)

Prabakar said...

this blog was a like a breeze playing at me....

It is very true that when we don't understand something fully, it feels good and great....

Amith said...

Shan you are getting older.. this is what we youngsters call 'The Generation Gap' :)

Amith said...

Forgot to mention, my previous post was just to pull your legs ;)

Then its nice to see you blog... keep it going - All singam's of sangam are blogging :)